Simply Irresistable

It's the weekend, and while most families are out and enjoying the great California sun, the kids and I have been stuck indoors while Daddy works hard making wedding dreams come true.

I can't say that I'm not jealous, but I can't say that I'd rather be out there than home with my kids.

It's not as glamorous as sitting poolside with an Au Pair who tends to my children while I sunbathe and work on that "perfect tan" that all the major magazines squawk about. Nor, is it as busy as the last few weekdays have been, bombarded by endless activities to keep the kids entertained and out of headlocks. No, no, no.... it's a quiet, calm, and relaxing weekend. Intentionally so as well.

I need... yes I said, I... I need some time to just catch my breath and enjoy the simple things that make my days worth having. The house is in disarray and I know I'll probably get the "husband's scold" that I don't do anything while he works hard for the money, but I don't care right now. Because after all, it is but one argument that will blow over then fixed before the next evening. A mere sacrifice to what is absolutely needed in my life. I need to stop and just be. Just be a care free, adolescent like, girl who just couldn't be bothered unless my favorite show came on or a best friend calls. It is but just one day isn't it?

A guilt free day, I suppose. Don't get me wrong. It's not like i'm letting my children starve to death, sit in their own filth, or allow them to kick each other in the head till they pass out. Nope. Not like that. I'm just not this overly crazed control freak, passing out at every site of disorganization in my house. I'm just not feeling guilty for not try or struggling for perfection today.

Instead, I'm just enjoying the simple and irresistable faces of my children.

Like, when they get over their new found "friend" or "critter" they find in our yard, or when they excitedly put something away without me uttering a word of direction, or their needing sighs when they first wake from a nap with their arms desperately reaching for you.

Yes, those moments are so much better to relish in than to aimlessly and continuously run around the house picking up every single piece of chaos around me.

A small sacrificial price to pay for the little moments that simply remind me that these moments are the ones I overlook when caught in the hustle and bustle of maintaining life any other given day.

I've gotta remind myself to stop a few imes during the day and just be. ,